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Understanding Order, The Wish and First Try

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As I work through this period of purification and self-modification (I would call this ‘behavior modification’ but I am doing a lot more than simply trying to alter a singular behavior at the moment) I continue to study the dharma, study myself, explore other’s thoughts and opinions on spirituality, engage in spiritual practice and try new things.

Well, I haven’t worked with sacred geometry for some time. And I mean… I think I still had ‘teen’ in my age the last time I used it. Well, on a serious scale that is. I first learned about how to use sacred geometry from my father, the Kabbalist. And while he explained utilitarian uses for it and how it applied to creating physical trees of life to manifest internal change, etc, etc… he never really expressed things in a way that helped me understand the profound, beautiful and intricate nature of it. In fact, his explanations steered me away from it because I began to view it as a crutch – a view I developed surrounding the system of Kabbalah and similar systems of High Western Ritual Magic. My problem was never with the geometry, it was with the application of it and the other elements to create a system of ritual that was too rigid with little point to being so rigid. (Look, I’m not saying I don’t understand why it is that way. I DO. But it’s not right FOR ME.) In my opinion, it gets lost in the intricacies of an obsessive level of detail that simply isn’t necessary to manifest what you need for some of us. Some people need to have a rigid system like that because they lack the ability to build a system of spirituality themselves. That’s ok. If that works for you, go forth and do! But, as summoning spirits is one of the most unnecessary tasks in my life, because they come and they don’t care if I do or don’t like it usually; and if I want something to show up, usually I just need to ask.

For me, the over-complications of Kabbalah just got in the way of everything else. I felt that being more in line with nature and a natural and intuitive form of magic was much more effective and reasonable. It cut straight to the point and that was how I was led to wade through book after book after book on druidry. Both what little we know historically and conjecture. I drank in all the different opinions and tried to learn about the history of the land and people who wrote about the druids so I could understand their personal stakes in the information or understand any censorship/strange influences (like 11th Century Irish monks romanticizing their past with the druids as accepting and tolerant.) I learned of the Order of Bards, Ovates and Druids. I wished to join for several years but simply did not have the funds. So, I followed their activities and publications and filled my head with herblore and magical correspondences. Which, it turned out, spending most of my youth learning all the basics of the elements, chakras, herbal preparations, colors and more would provide me with all the tools I would ever want and need to unlock some of the deeper secrets of Tantra practice and truly enhance it once I was ready to discover it.

So, Instead of learning a system of magic as such what I learned was how to make any type of magic any time, anywhere. I’ve studied different methods, I’ve looked at different types of cultural magic and it all comes down to pretty much the same formula every time. I won’t be going into the formula right at this moment, but perhaps sometime soon because it comes down to the point that the greatest secret of High Magic is that… there is no such thing as magic.

Most of your faces look like this right now:

o,O

It’s ok, I’ll explain that another time. I’m planning to make a video called ‘There is No Such Thing as Magic’ and explain why there both is and is not magic, but more than anything… it’s not magic. It just seems like it because of how it is explained to us. It might seem strange, but I absolutely consider myself a Metaphysicist in the truest of terms. I am a scientist of the mind. I come up with varying hypothesis involving the body-mind and then I test them. I change my views in life according to appropriate evidence and I respect the laws of probability. As a scientist, I can only tell you what I have found to be probable through my own experiments, research and experience. I strongly suggest that everyone out there look for realizations, actualizations, and truth through self-inquiry and study. Don’t believe me, your mom, your priest, yourself or your dog. Go out and explore everything for yourself. But… I digress.

The point is, I cast something off and out of my world quite some time ago because I didn’t understand it. I clearly was not ready for it and it was only through hard work, dedication, self-motivation and inquiry that I made myself ready for it and now I can truly appreciate it and what it can do for your mind. Even in all of my art classes, I have heard my favorite teacher go on and on and on about the golden mean and sacred geometry with incredible passion and feeling and I just didn’t get it. Of course, there was a lot of other things going on in my body-mind then and it was an exceptionally difficult time as I went through the most intensive and brutal time of my shamanic illness and I couldn’t see much further in front of my own hands.

Now, however, I am starting to understand the magnitude and beauty of sacred geometry. Not only am I able to understand it better, but now, as I study it I am able to put it into practice with realizations, visualizations and so much more.

I had heard that if you drew the flower of life that your mind would begin to order itself and it would help elevate understanding. Well, the picture above is my first attempt (I did make a tiny other first attempt but it was clear that my structure and positioning was seriously flawed and I stopped VERY early. It is on the reverse of this picture! XD ) The experience of building this was intense and fun and it made my head feel very… enhanced. And by that I mean, the pain in my back started to act up during painting this. But my mind countered with producing the opiate like chemicals our bodies create naturally to help subdue the pain periodically without having to meditate with intent to get the mind to react. Also, my mind continued to remain quite sharp and clear until I was done. Of course, once I finished it I was exhausted.

Tomorrow, I’ll see how it goes trying to make another. Already, I feel like I understand it better.

I should note I’m not using a guide to create the Flower of Life, I have seen a quick construction briefly at one point recently and have been working from that flawed memory to discover some of the early pieces of understanding on my own by making mistakes.

Enough rambling for me!
The painting was done with an Amethyst Pigmented Watercolor and accented with a brown ink.
Namaste! =)



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